LisaAnthonyPoppy

On 6/1/2015 the day before my wedding it had rained the whole entire day in PDC. Like the whole day. It was set at 100% chance to rain on my wedding day too. And I'm not talking your typical on and off tropical rains. I was sick physically sick over it. The guys were in the middle of the ocean on a deep sea fishing boat and the storms got pretty bad. As a mom I was worrying for my son on the boat. Later that day there were all these last minute to dos. Then rehearsal dinner at Aldea Corazon that I spent monthd to pick out bc it is like s romantic jungle restaurant on 5th ave. the dinner was set for outside. That didn't work out we went inside:( My on site wedding coordinator wasn't the biggest help but she got the job done. At rehearsal she told me I had to have wedding inside bc of forecast, she even showed me her intended ceremony did e, which consisted of a tiny room upstairs above their restaurant area. I was in silence it all became too much, I shut down and walked quietly back to oceans edge and sat to cry. Scott came over and comforted me. I was late to dinner bc the 4 Ativans prescribed for trip anxiety ( don't judge they were .5 milligram lol) I took to calm my nerves only made me feel worse. I dropped a heavy chair on my toe and my shellac Polish literally popped off 2 of two of my toes. Lol ruined pedicure. Whatever. My friends stayed back with me and they hugged me and loved me. Upon getting to rehearsal dinner I felt hollow I felt like my vision of my day was crumbling down. I had spent so much energy time and my childhood vision was shattered. I wouldn't get to walk on the sand...Of all days why now? The Mexicsns said the rain was very unusual. But that they needed it to stop the fires in fields, said it hadn't rained since Feb. The morning of wedding I didn't want to get out of bed I was so let down. I called my reiki healer and she put things into place for me. Examples rain is renewal a cleansing a fresh start, that God was using the rain to cleanse and renew. And for Scott and I to be the sunshine on that day. Tears, she made me see things with a new light. I decided no checking the forecast no matter what. Was going to let it ride.And upon dropping off last of supplies on wedding day i asked the WC to set up outside. She was really reluctant but she agreed. My friends and son joined hands and said a prayer and ask that God would provide us with whatever we needed on our wedding day, rain shine or anything else. I told God I trusted his plan. I was tempted once to check the forecast bc literally the sky was bleak allllll day. But I didnt. I remembered my promise of faith for provision. Fast forward My AMAZING MUA Zoe Elizabeth and her friend who is a hairstylist came right on time at 3 pm. They made me look exactly how I wanted to feel. Bam. Finger waves, red lips, Spanish veil Of course something had to bubble- Scotts mom no showed and she was on baby duty. In fact she insisted on being there to help and she no showed no call nothing. But she miraculously was at the wedding but we forgive and move on. Not so easy to get ready with a 2 year old but My friends and cousin made it work. They took on her job and many others so I could get ready. After I was done I set out money for tips here's what I have. 100 DJ 40 MUA- stylist, 60 chef, 15 each server and bartender they were the trur Heros they worked so hard!! Awesome staff, 100 to photographer, 200 WC (regret that lol) And I think that's about it. Ok so 6:40 jumped in cab, wedding venue was about 4 blocks. The clouds are so heavy the sky was grey there was a mist. My wedding was 20 minutes away and it was going to pour! .... Tbc

Thank you for the many wishes and compliments. Will write more and share my experience and answer any questions you may have once we return home )))

Sneak peak... It rained HARD the ENTIRE day before. The locals said that it hadn't rained like that since February & they needed that rain. It was SUPPOSE to rain all day 100% the day of wedding but it held off until a sprinkle of rain right after wedding ceremony. Good luck. I was sick thinking we couldn't marry outside but everything turned out absolutely perfect. Like can't even give or show enough gratitude. Just perfect. The rains the day before sent renewal rebirth and cleansing to us all. Good day

4 suitcases, 2 carry Ona, 3 personal bags, 2 garment bags - having enough tulle in it to resemble a human - are packed and ready to roll. Literally. Just need to call taxi to take us the the airport and at 6 am we are off. Will post lots of pictures!

Sex In the City is a good one!

And ACW271011 or whatever your name is, since we are on the topic of bravery and honesty, I can honestly say that over this last year you have been less than positive and I detect a sense of smugness in your responses to me. So I ask that you keep your negativity far far away from me and refrain from commenting on my posts. Thanks, LIsa

Look, I don't need an opinion on whether or not counseling after only 4 years is a good sign or not. As a child I had to undergo extensive cognitive therapy counseling. And I was 12 when it started so what does that say? Was that too soon? I don't think so, in my mind it saved my life. And made me a fair person accountable for my actions. It made me understand me choices were my own. Judge not least you be judged. I think counseling will help Scott learn to provide better, and me to nurture what we have and not walk away. After much thought and thinking about the years we have spent together and WHY we spent them together I know in my heart he is meant for me and I for him. I guess when the planning fun phase ended it also put things back into focus and I started to pick apart every flaw, every thing I didn't like. I opened up to someone about it and he took advantage of me and was textbook sociopath. Look into it if you care to know what that means.,.Anyways I stopped that all and I had to tell Scott the truth and he was hurt. He recognized his weaker points and I made a vow to never open myself up to another person. I was wrong, After my confession, we decided it would be beneficial if we had a place we could talk without blame or judgement. Over the last few days I've been questioning the wedding, not our relationship, as so many of you have recognized in your posts. So thank you for you all for opening up to me and being real with me. Are we ready? What is ready? Is it my default tactic to run when I'm scared? Is it my mind that's being over critcial? What is it? I had a breakthrough on my yoga mat last night that carried into today. And I can say with confidence I should marry this man and I want to marry this man.And I will marry this man on June 2nd 2015. And I blessed that he accepts me and loves me and wants to be my husband, love, pain and everything in between. And we will grow together in any setting necessary to foster s healthy relationship. Thank for your time and your insight. I see that others can relate and that's like receiving a big hug. Makes me feel less isolated in my mind. I wish something good come your way.Goodnight.

Thank you women for ALL of your responses. I really really appreciate the fair and considerate responses. It has been on my mind for so long. The person I met came into my life and is no longer in my life. It was a total emotional affair, . I fell for the illusion of this person that wasn't real. But before that happened I had been talking to Scott about working out a way to make each other happier. Scott asks nothing of me in return. He's content with whatever. It's me who wants him to not be counting on me to do everything. I want to feel like a woman. I want to feel like I can relax and I don't have to do everything. He hasn't made me feel like a woman in years. Damnit I wanna put on a pair of high heels.Sure if I tell Scott to do something he will do it, but then again I have to essentially beg. He is open to go to counseling with me. My mother walked away from everything even us kids when things got tough. I'm praying that meeting this person and seeing this person out of my life exactly one month 5/2/2015 before my wedding is a sign that Scott is my true love and I hope that Scott now sees how serious I am about my feelings of neglect and unfulfillment bc I told him everything about this other person. He cried, I cried and I asked if we should still do this. He said he loves me more than life and he still wants to marry me and he is open to talking to someone and learning how to be more of an emotional and physical provider. Gosh I can't believe I confessed this all. I'm going to kick it around the whole wedding thing and let you all know. Everyone who knows me tells me he is a great man and loves me unconditionally and this is all very true but I want to feel alive.

Anyone else have cold feet the last 2-3 months before wedding? My fiancé is not to blame 100%. . I just wish he worked a lot harder and was more manly. It's been digging at me. We have been together for 4 years we have a daughter together , a great family unit if you will..l I had a 4 year old when we met. Things change now I'm older I want more and he is content living paycheck to paycheck going to chain restuarants and watch football all night. I'm a bitch I know but I like to talk have introspective conversations, experience exploration, grow, change. Anyways I met someone a couple months ago who threw a wrench into everything but most importantly they taught me that I do have a good man in Scott and all off this is making me wonder if I'm ready to get married. If I need to feed my garden and watch it bloom. 16 days before we leave and I'm like not even responding to vendors aside from letting them know I'm busy and I'm working on the plans. Is this normal to have doubts? To be scared? Wondering if marriage is where its at? I'm going to start working on plans today, aggggggghhhh why is my mind so critical? I hate it. No judgement please. Thx

@@Wafflesmom thanks... I lost my excitement.

I know. I have had cold feet for the last two months. I quit all thoughts and planning. Now I'm starting to become ok with it and warming up to the thought of forever (I've never seen commitments work out in my family) and I accepting that I can commit. Anyways I've got vendors contacting me, I should prob start planning we leave in 17 days....

Awesome! my wedding is June 2nd and Im looking forward!

Awesome! Let us know how they worked!

Wondering if they even work against the wind.

Akumal beach is before Tulum. Some entry points into water can be rocky. Check specifics if you book here. They do have nice beaches.