Ugh...is anyone else awake!?

brandynd · July 21, 2009

Hey ladies....so it's 2:15 on a lovely morning in Omaha, and I'm up stressing about wedding stuff. My MOH backed out of my wedding earlier this evening, and I'm left with a nonrefundable trip. Also, we're having difficulties between the moms, and there's a very strange stain on my carpet in the corner of the room that is staring at me and daring to be begging to be scrubbed with some woolite.

This is oh so random....I just feel like I'm losing it. Every little thing makes me crazy. Got into a fight with FI tonight about shades of teal..he went ahead and reserved the ridiculously expensive turquoise chair covers that I HAD to have, and I freaked because they were in the wrong shade....WTF, who fights about a color like that? Too late to call my mom and get her to talk me down off of this bridezilla trip I have going on.

If anybody is awake....some mindless chit chat would be nice, because I think I'm losing my mind. Is it normal to get this frazzled still 6 months out?

marryinghimagain · July 21, 2009

Awww, brandynd... I'm so sorry that nobody was around during your time of need. I hope that you are feeling better now. In answer to your question, yes, at least I think, it is normal to feel frazzled. We each have our own "little things" that seem to turn into "big things" that totally pile up and make us feel like we are going to lose it. At the time, they seem so important and worth fighting over but then later make you say, "WTH?".

Take a deep breath, each issue will work out. It may seem early to you to be frazzled but look at the positive side, you have time to work them all out . (I'm sure you have already scrubbed the begging stain ) Hang in there, it will all be fine.

Hmmmm, could you possibly enlist another MOH and transfer the trip to her?

JOSIE · July 21, 2009

I am totally feeling your pain too although I was not actually awake when you posted this! I'm beginning to get upset about everything. We ended up inviting way more people than I ever wanted, and now many of them are actually starting to book and its freaking me out. We're gonna have like 60 people and thats not what i wanted!!!!!!!! plus my mom sends me a million links a day with OOT bags, pics etc and I am just so over it all.......ah!!

YoursTruly · July 23, 2009

a good nights rest usually puts things in perspective. were you able to sleep and how are you feeling now? just try to tackle one major item at a time okay.

brandynd · July 23, 2009

Yeah, I did finally pass out. I think a great deal of my problem is that I don't have anything besides wedding planning right now. FI is supporting me at this point so that I can study for my entrance exam into grad school, so all that I've been doing is school and wedding, wedding and school....just in alternate orders.

It got to be so much that I think I finally just imploded upon myself. I've never melted down like that before, and I ended up calling one of my girl friends who drove over at 3 in the morning and poured a few bottles of wine down my throat. Not the best coping mechanism, but at least we had a few good laughs and it got my mind off of things for a while.

Idk, I think I need to find something else to keep me busy for a few hours each week, other than going up to the pool and my trips to the gym. Does anybody know of any good charities or anything that would be good to volunteer with? The only one I've ever really been a part of is the ACS, and they really don't need any help right now..