Rollercoaster of emotions

[Kristy!]

Well yesterday was a long day. I was at the hospital last night until 10:00 with FI and FMIL feeling totally helpless. (For those of you who missed it, FFIL was diagnosed with leukemia yesterday.) Needless to say, we are all emotionally drained.

 

This morning, I wake up and all I can think about is the wedding. I have no clue what is going to happen and I feel like such an awful person that I'm even worrying about it right now. It's just been so tough with FI's cousin getting diagnosed with breast cancer a few months ago and now his dad with leukemia. I watched both of my brothers have very smooth engagements and weddings, but now that I'm engaged, everyone's getting sick. I'm just getting so disheartened. I couldn't wait to log on here this morning because you guys are the only ones I can say this to and I know you'll understand. I love my FFIL and I want him to have a speedy recovery with as little amount of pain as possible. I want FI, FMIL, and FSIL to get through this with minimal worry. I also want to be able to concentrate on my wedding and I can't. I guess I just see my dream St. Lucia wedding slipping away and I'm really upset. I know I'm jumping the gun here and everything could turn out fine, but I just have a bad feeling.

 

Thanks for listening. I hope I didn't give the impression that my wedding is more important than FFIL's health because that is so not the case. I just needed to get all that out.

[ACDCDCAC]

oh man. that is such a blow. i'm so sorry to hear the news

{{HUGS}}

[Alyssa]

i totally understand - don't feel bad for feeling that way - you are going through a lot and it is completely normal that you would not want to lose the opportunity to have the wedding of your dreams. just take it one day at a time and pray for the strength you will need to get through this.

 

don't make any non-refundable or 'permanent' decisions just yet and keep moving forward in your planning.

 

we are all here for you if yo uneed anything xoxo

[Jenn3878]

I am so sorry to hear this and I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers! Things will work out Stay positive!

[BePhoto]

Sorry to hear that!! -- I'll pray for you and your family. -

[TammyB]

I'm so sorry you and your family is dealing with this. I hope everything turns out ok

[Sandra E.]

It's completely ok for you to have all of these emotions, you've gone through a lot. Hang in there.

[becks]

Big hugs! I know it's tough, because you want to focus on happy, special things. And so you feel guilty for wanting to think about the wedding, on top of everything else.

 

Keep planning. It's good for everyone to have something big and special to look forward to!

[1elephant]

i have no advice, but

[Jenn]

I'm sorry to hear about everything that is going on! Totally sucks!