My Grandmother passed away today! :(

[michelle08]

So my mom called me this morning to let me know that my grandmother passed away this morning. It was expected. She has had Emphaseyma/COPD for a few years now just getting progressively worse and since January she has been in a nursing home on hospice care. Over the last week she got phemonia and it just took it's toll. She was basically in a coma state for the last 6 days or so to keep her from feeling pain she was heavily sedated so we knew it was coming but it is still hard.

 

Since I am not one to share my feelings so well I always try to fight the tears...I thought I could post on here and share my feelings and it would be easier...

 

I am heading up to be with my family in just a little bit and it's so hard because when I am around my family I feel like I have to be the strong one and I fight back tears but I haven't really been able to stop crying all morning. I am really going to miss her and you really don't realize how much until she is gone. We were really close and I think I talked to her on the phone more than my mom because my mom is so busy and stuff. Eventhough the phone calls slowed, it's just weird to know that I can never pick up the phone and call her again...

 

Sorry to ramble...it just helps to write it out...

[ACDCDCAC]

oh michelle, i'm so sad for you. that is so hard, even when its "expected". sending bigs hugs your way.

[Christine]

oh I am so sorry Michelle, even if its expected its still really hard. Try your best to remember the good times and what a great person she was for you.

[Saraha]

Michelle, Im so sorry to hear this. No matter if its expected or not its never easy to lose a loved one. Im sorry you have to go through this, we are all hear if you need anything.

[Maura]

oh michelle. im so sorry. my gram has emphysema and COPD too. even though you expected it, that doesnt make it any less painful. you and your family are in my thoughts! big hug to you!

[ErinB]

Michelle, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is. Please let us know if there is anything we can do. Feel free to vent anytime you need to.

[lucy106]

Michelle, I am so sorry for your loss. May you find comfort in the wonderful memories. Your family is in my thoughts!

[michelle08]

Thanks gals...I appreciate your kind words...i thought this would be easier...but as I read your posts...it makes me cry...but it's okay...crying is good sometimes...plus I didn't put mascara on...so I am good (I have to use humor to help me through!)

[TammyB]

I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say. Sending you a big hug.

[Birdie07]

My grandmother passed on tuesday so I know how you feel. I'm still crying. If you need to talk let me know. I'm sorry for your loss