I used to be a smoker...I sometimes hate to admit it, especially since I work in the healthcare field and know and see first hand all the negative consequences. I was really sick in September and was admitted to hospital for a week and that made me quit, mostly because I couldnt even go outside to have a smoke and was to sick to even think about it! It really is libirating to finally quit and I have never felt better. I won't lie though, most days are a struggle, especially since my dear FI smokes and so do my closest friends. I believe in you and when the time is right you will do it!!