Hi *tinkertoy*, Thanks for the insight seriously! As much as I want that magic pill I know that it does not exist! I have talked myself out of it everyday, but then I will see a lap band commercial and then I will start reconsidering which I did today. I love myself as I am, but I know how I can be too so I miss the smaller me. Its hard for me to get started because I get so defeated before I even begin. But I have to try! My FI and I both are working on taking off some serious weight before the wedding so hopefully it will work. I will fill you all in!