FI & I had an awesome meeting with our photographer today. She's incredible. I love her. She has a friend who shot a wedding in Jamaica and he gave her tons of pointers & ideas. Her plan for our TTD involves a full day of pretty much touring the island. We're going to the other side (South Side) where there is a gorgeous waterfall that isn't as touristy as the ones nearby the resort, and maybe getting some horse pics, then driving around to Negril to some gorgeous beaches... from 10am to sunset the day after. I'm so pumped. It's awesome to see her so excited too! It puts me at such ease. 44 days until we leave. Craziness. I'm trying to get all of my design stuff done but I always end up working on my freelance projects and my OWN wedding projects are falling behind! Ahh!! The biggest "waiting game" I'm playing is that I can't print or finish anything really until I hear from my one friend. I know I posted it about it MONTHS ago but my BEST FRIEND moved to Australia on a whim with her BF for a year or so. Well they've extended their trip and even though she said she'd be at my wedding no matter what when I asked her to my BM, things changed quickly. I doubt she's going to come. Like 99.9% sure she won't be there. She already pretty much told me they can't afford it because they're traveling around, which is understandable, whatever, I'm sad, but I'm over it... the issue is that she is avoiding it because she doesn't want to hurt my feelings and let me down. I told her the VERY latest she needed to tell me was a month before we left (March. 23rd). If she was any other guest it wouldn't hold anything off, but because she's supposed to be my BM (I have her dress hanging in my closet and everything), I can't print the programs, I can't buy my BM gifts, etc. Ugh. Fun! I don't know... nothing to do with the above paragraph but I've been feeling pretty down lately... anyone else in the same boat? I thought I'd be super excited at this time but I'm more down in the dumps than anything. I'm just telling myself it's all the stresses building up on me and I'll get over it.