I am dying here....... I am leaving for Mexico to get married in 3 weeks and am FREAKING OUT!!!!!!! At first I thought it was pre-wedding jitters but now I am not so sure. We have a great relationship, truly, but I just can't help but feel like something is missing. It's not my fiance's fault, he loves me very much as do I him. But there is no passion. None. I hear that things cool off a bit before the wedding and that is normal, but I feel like they are ice cold and have been for a long time. It's not him, it's me. I do not feel even one small spark of attraction to him ... I am daydreaming about other people, I cringe when he tries to touch me, all those small annoyances seem amplified and make me want to poke my eyes out. I totally realize that sounds so b*tchy I can hardly believe I am typing it...but I just have to let it out....... I don't feel excited, I feel panic. Dread almost. I feel sick to my stomach all the time. Can I be with him for the rest of my life? When people ask me if I'm ready and if I'm excited I avoid the question and say I'm nervous and change the subject. To top it all off, I went through the worst destination wedding TA company ever....granted, the woman I worked with did a nice job, but we had to sign a contract to get credit for room nights booked to help with the private functions. We arrive in less than 3 weeks...under the terms of the contract, if we cancel now we must pay 100% of the room night revenue lost. There are 14 rooms in our contract...If we estimate 2 grand per room, that is $30 THOUSAND DOLLARS. I do not have 30 grand. Not to mention if people decide to cancel their trip they will all be out hundreds of dollars each if they didn't buy trip insurance. Including us because we stupidly didn't buy insurance. This isn't just about me, as we are in this together... I want to tell him and I finally worked up the nerve tonight. Then I lost it. Now he is going to be gone for the next 3 days for this bachelor party.... What do I do???????????