awww im sorry..hope everything works out..if you need to vent you can pm me im a good listener..but what i can tell you from experience is thats completely normal..i live with my fi and there are days where im screaming with vocal cords i never knew i had, and days that i love him so much i want to inhale him..fighting is normal and its going to happen and anyone that tells you they dont fight or what your experiencing is bad is lying to you.People are so afraid to admit the reality of life that i feel bad for them. Its normal to question, wonder, fight, make up and be assured all over again.theres a thin line between love and hate and we all cross that line all the time. it will work out in the end i promise you...just dont fight the fact within yourself that you're fighting its normal, it happens and it will continue to happy for god willing the rest of your marriage..you need the bad times to appreciate the good.