Jenna~ Keep your head up sweetie! I was in your situation also...5 years of "next year, next year, next year" It was frustrating!
In hindsight, i am glad that we waited, we have had MANY tests of our relationship, which we made it through. We didn't have money, we were moving, we had career changes and A BABY! All Hugh relationship tests... we made it and are now planning OUR dream wedding.
Before, I have to say, that it felt like it was just my wedding bc he wasn't ready for various reasons. And if it turns out that the 2 of you weren't meant to be that's ok too! You will be fine and everything will work itself out.
I am a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason" Good luck and keep us posted.