We are booked to be married on July 25, 2010. And now due to financial strains on us, we have to cancel. There is no foreseeable time frame for when we will recover financially. As selfish as it is, I feel such resentment to ward FI, knowing I never had the engagement I always dreamed of and now not even a wedding. I know we will just have to postpone until we have our finances together, but it bothers me so much. I don't want to have to continue to wait when I have put all this time and effort into planning so far and telling people about it. And I have to put a smile on my face everyday and act like I am ok with it when I am not.
I just needed to vent somewhere so thanks for reading. Hopefully eventually I will get over this. Most of this is pure selfishness, but in reality, most women dream of this day and I'm no different.