I went to the ob-gyn to make sure all is well for my wedding day. As usual, for me to have anyone poking around in my privates is totally humiliating. I always feel so dirty afterwards. As I walked out I saw myself in the mirror and I thought I looked a hot mess. As I walked down the stairs, I saw this gorgeous young woman coming upstairs and I thought, "Now why can't I look like that?" "Fat" has never been a word I've used to describe myself, but in that moment I used that and much more. I know now it was just a result of my ob-gyn visit and other added feelings.
Don't beat yourself up. You are human. Don't try to tackle everything at once. Start small. Cant exercise for 30 minutes. Try 8 minutes. Craving chocolate? Have a little bit and move on. But keep positive and say positive things to yourself. Know you are beautiful.