Well yesterday was a long day. I was at the hospital last night until 10:00 with FI and FMIL feeling totally helpless. (For those of you who missed it, FFIL was diagnosed with leukemia yesterday.) Needless to say, we are all emotionally drained.
This morning, I wake up and all I can think about is the wedding. I have no clue what is going to happen and I feel like such an awful person that I'm even worrying about it right now. It's just been so tough with FI's cousin getting diagnosed with breast cancer a few months ago and now his dad with leukemia. I watched both of my brothers have very smooth engagements and weddings, but now that I'm engaged, everyone's getting sick. I'm just getting so disheartened. I couldn't wait to log on here this morning because you guys are the only ones I can say this to and I know you'll understand. I love my FFIL and I want him to have a speedy recovery with as little amount of pain as possible. I want FI, FMIL, and FSIL to get through this with minimal worry. I also want to be able to concentrate on my wedding and I can't. I guess I just see my dream St. Lucia wedding slipping away and I'm really upset. I know I'm jumping the gun here and everything could turn out fine, but I just have a bad feeling.
Thanks for listening. I hope I didn't give the impression that my wedding is more important than FFIL's health because that is so not the case. I just needed to get all that out.