Jacqueline

sorry that came out wrong, what i mean is the foot jewels are super cute but it was the fake foot that was freaky hahaha i looked at it and thought it was your foot at first.. and thought omg her feet are perfect, but in a weird way. phahahaaa ohh its been a longg day. sorry.

very pur-tyy i have to say that foot pic freaked me out alil, lol

Quote: Originally Posted by SgtPepperette I have been in counseling....and couldnt imagine how much harder it would be if I wasnt! Im wondering when Ill move past this very angry phase. Im still so angry with her, and her choices. My mom knows a little bit of how I feel but not as much as she should. Or should I say understand it as much as she should. We are pretty sure she has a mental illness (she refuses to see anyone, but my therapist says it sounds like she may have multiple personality disorder) due to her upbringing and past. Its hard to talk to her and get through to her sometimes. She twists everything around. Very one sided and always about her. Everyone is always out to get her. I asked her to go to counseling with me and she refuses. She says that family problems stay within the family and we are not going to a stranger to talk about them. I also think this is partly due to her upbringing. Honestly, I dont see her in my life at all. As sad as that is. I wonder if Ill feel different once I start having kids though. We have had a long history of situations like this. My dad was our buffer, and now that hes not there well we cant make things work. I think Im also to fragile right now to be in the mindframe I need to be with to deal with her. Ive gone through many years of therapy learning how to set boundaries with her, and handle her ridlicious reactions to things. But right now I cant muster the energy for it. On a more positive note, I LOVE THE BEATLES! Actually last year my FI and I bought a mini cooper, he is white with black racing stripes. We named him sgtpepper Hes coming to the wedding to lol well at least you have attempted to go to counselling with her, you can never say you didnt try. at this point def continuing going for you though. perhaps in time you can learn how to "deal" with her when she calls out of no where like that, and acts out the way shes been, etc. you should mention this to your therapist and she what they suggest you do. if your mom is sick like they think, that is terrible too b/c its basically beating a dead horse, b/c she wont get the help. it can be exhausting for you. you cant let her stubbornness or just her not knowing the way she is bring you down. ecsp now. you said you have come so far with the grieving process so continue to do that and dont let her interrupt that, b/c it soo important. you have a wedding coming up, and lots of other things you will be going through emotionally. i dont want to say "f her" b/c its your mom and i think you must have love for her, but def worry about yourself right now, and not her. this is prob hard too for your fi.... does he say much about it? YAY i like the beatles too. my bro was always a huge fan so thats how i first heard them. hey, and nothing heals the heart like some good music, the beatles are DEF good for that!!!!!

hmmmmmmmmmmm i guess your guys friends, ? ha or do u have a sister, female cousins or aunts? you could just have a nice night out with them if so, if not them, go out with whoever you consider a friend!! male or female ;o)

aw im so sorry to hear this, i hope things get better! it doesnt seem like you're ready for her to be back in your life so i'd def not force that. that can only happen when you forgive her for what shes done. have you ever gone to counselling or considered it, for yourself. it might be good just to talk to someone on the outside, and help get your feeling toward her dealt with...it seems like a lot is bottled up. does she know your thoughts on all what you mentioned above? would you consider going to counseling WITH her? or are you thinking you dont ever want to work it out with her? btw- i have to say i love your name, "sgtpepperette", its cute;o) are u a beatles fan or is that just a name & nothing to do with beatles?

Quote: Originally Posted by lil_miss_frogg I just realized it sounded like I was happy that my dentist killed his wife and girlfriend....oops. That is not what I was trying to get across. Just the fact that I was glad I didn't have to see him anymore. i knew what you meant ;o)

omg danielle that is insane, poor derek. i dont get it, why cant they find the problem with theese teeth?? do you think if she had all her teeth pulled it would make it better?? omg, miss frog, i just laughed at your reply. lol i know its TOTALLY not funny AT ALL and i feel bad for my lol moment but your tone is so funny. wow that is nuts he killed them, what a monster, may he rot in hell, teeth and all! what an erie feeling that must be, knowing he touched your teeth! lol i will give my mom a hug from you haha thx.

ok so she just called, she is now at work. anyway, the "specialist"- the dentist gave her a specialists ( i didnt know this until right now, she saw him the last time too) said that all looks okay and nothing to worry about. he gave her some type of steroid antibiotic to help with the healing and to help the swelling. i asked her why she keeps going there and if she can find another place and she said that she IS seeing someone else, the specialists that the dentist recommend. he said sometimes they just have to find the right antibiotic to find out whats wrong, so it can get fixed. (obviously but i just feel like they are brushing her off) he didnt seem to think it was infected or anything major. she has an apt on mon to see if they can fricken finish the root canal. hopefully the meds work and they can actually do the work!!!

i SHOULD have given up eating all together hence the fact that ive gained at least 15-20 lbs. i know this b/c i tried on a blk dress of mine that i wore a year and 1/2 ago and its snug as a rug and at least 2 sizes too small. if i would have tried it on in the store and it fit me this way, i would have went up a size or 2. the fact that i am going to maui in 2 months makes me ill. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but anyway to answer your ?, i gave up cursing and being a b*tch to joe, and to try and have more sex with him. im doing good with the no cursing so far ;o)

im not sure why she wont go somewhere else. i told her to go somewhere else but she is having hard time b/c her insurance i think. and before when the pain and swelling did go away, she thought all was ok until this am when it happened again. hopefully after today she WILL go somewhere else. i mean, its redic. yes car i will keep u posted. it nuts b/c she was going to get invisilyn or braces a couple years ago when i got my invisilyn, she had always hated her teeth. but then decided that since shes older and would prob start having teeth issues she will just get them pulled and get new ones ;o) then my sis got married and now me so shes been putting it off and now this is happening. i feel so bad for her.

what a gr8 review! jean, are you blushing? lol you are wonderful! i cant WAIT to see your photos jenny!

aw i feel so bad for my mom ( she has had this tooth problem for the past 2 months now. she went to dentist and they told her she needed a root canal, so she went in for root canal and for whatever reason they couldnt get to the bottom of the root or SOMETHING, im not sure of the medical issue but they couldnt finish it. they put her on antibiotic and rescheduled apt. she went in a 2nd time to have it, and the same thing, they couldnt finish it. reschedule again, meanwhile it hurts her and the one side of her mouth is swollen. she calls and they say b/c her tooth is rubbing, so to come in and they will file it, she does that and she feels relief. but it starts up again, so she calls them and told them and over the phone (which pisses me off they didn't want to SEE her) give her a stronger antibiotic. the swelling goes down and she feels better. she is done the meds within week i guess it was and she calls me this am and says it is hurting her again and i can tell she is ready to cry. i said how come you're ready to cry, does it hurt or are you nervous about something? and she started to cry and said well it hurts but shes more nervous, what if this gets infected or if it IS infected, that she should have just had all her teeth pulled months ago, what if its bad for my wedding, and she starts going on and on and all this. so i told her to call them back and insist on coming in, so she does and she has apt at 11. but i hope its ok and its not infected and that they just fix the damn problem! she is scared i think b/c a few years back my brother had his tooth pulled (WHEN it was infected, the dentist should not have pulled it but anyway thats a whole diff story) but within a few hours of the root canal he was in agony. he called my mom and she rushed over to his house b/c she couldnt understand what he was saying and when she saw him she was in shock at what he looked like. his face and throat were so swelled he coulnt breathe, and he was out of it, like a zombie. the infection from the tooth went in his blood stream and he almost died. the hospital said a few more hours he would have died! so he was in the hospital, icu, for about a month! he was weak and it was as if he had some deadly disease he was so comatose. she is so scared that is going to happen to her i think. poor thing. what do you guys think is wrong with it??

very pretty, & very nice of you to post too ;o)

YAY me too!!

and yes jaime i cant beleive u are behind me! ahhh how about you, what do you have left? how are u feeling?

thx girls. im so excited too, not nervous- yet haha. im anxious to see the bm's dresses more than anything right now, they didnt come in yet. heres what i have to do, that i can think of anyway... - Joe's band (apt 3/12) - Music/song selections: our entrance, bridal party entrance, mother/son, cutting of the cake, garter and flower toss, cocktail hour music, reception music - Pick picture location - Finalize gift carriers for ceremony- lisa and alicia - Print out mass program - Put together favors - Seating arrangements for guests - Food/cake etc selection- contact hall one month before - Call organists from St M's to confirm - Hair trial- get pix - AC Moore- stuff to make BM's apron and duster's

It is crazy to me that I am 2 months away from getting married. I remember when I first joined, I felt like I had SO much time to do everything...time goes by so extremely fast. omgoodness.

holy f*&^%

i think its so pretty, gorgeous! its formal but not "too" formal... anything goes

I just googled and saw prices ranging from 198 to 400!! I'm still in middle of reseaching though...but I wanted to ask do you think you can give me the demo lady's contact info (email or #) so I can call and see if she has any distributors around this way! Or even if there's a website the lady gave out. I'd love to have a demo! Is this the same thing Kim Kardash did on the one episode, she was getting cellulite removed? Does this remove (or HELP reduce) the look of ceelulite??

omg i just spit out my food and almost fell off my chair. im googling it nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.....

YEAH im with lil miss frog, when should i expect my invite! hahaa

wow i have not but i am in love with it!!!! who is that woman wearing it, is she a random person or a celeb?

this all sounds wonderful and i can tell you're excited! congrats!!

oh i loveee the david's one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is super cute!