I've always LOVED babies... so I guess I personally am no help. However, my sister was VERY much like you. She never wanted to hold babies much less change a diaper! But, they wanted a family. She would always joke around that I would raise the baby until they were one and then she'd have them Well, now that she has my niece she is totally different. She was SO attached to her as a baby. She still likes the stage she's in now better (toddler), but the baby part came very natural to her and we were all very shocked. I guess you look at the baby differently when it's your own.