Heidi, I had a miscarriage as well. It was the first and only time I've ever been prego. I told everyone before we hit 3 months because I was so excited, I got really depressed after I lost the baby (at two months) Not only was the miscarriage painful but it was really hard for me to deal with. So I completly understand the emotions you are going through. Everyone used to tell me "it's for the best" but that only made things worse. So just know that my heart goes out to you, and if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.