My latest Anxiety

So, those of you who know anything about me, know that I have anxiety and OCD issues. Well, guess what? With the wedding one week away, things are in high gear! My latest anxiety is this: what if the plane that has everyone I love in it, crashes? I cannot stop thinking about it. If I am alone or sitting around, this pops into my head. I am having trouble falling asleep at night with worry. Does anyone else ever think this or am I the only looney-tune?

Another anxiety is that something bad will happen to somebody before we leave. That is also something that I cannot stop thinking about. I know that it is stupid, that nothing I do can change what is going to happen but I cannot help it. Even as I type this, it sounds silly but tell that to my brain! I think I need a xanax! Oh well, at least typing it makes me feel better! I cannot really tell anyone about this except Ryan and my mom. So it feels better to tell you guys! Thanks for listening!

OMG, I have the same fear, but was afraid to even say it out loud or tell anyone, cuz then I didn't want them scared to get on the plane either!

Honey, beilieve me, you are not the only one that does this. When I was really starting to get frusterated with the whole planning thing, I started breaking out into hives all over my body, I have never had that before. Something I learned though...... alcohal works wonders!!!

You are not alone. I also have the same fear.

Lately, I am freaking out that my FI is going to get hurt or die. I have not told anyone this, cause I know I am being silly. But I think about it constantly. I am so happy and afraid that it will go away...

do you guys know how much I love you?!?! I really thought that I was crazy! Carly, you must be super stressed because it is soon time for you to leave too! Thanks so much for telling me that I am not alone! It makes me feel less like having nervous diarrhea!

I've definitely thought about the plane crashing with so many people I love on it. (I'll be on a different flight from most of my guests and FI.) It's totally normal, you just can't let it get the best of you.

I know, and then I worry about the guilt that I would have to live with forever, if the peopl ethat I loved were hurt on the way to my wedding! Ahhhhhh!

I am trying to reason those thougts away by saying, that I am only worrying aboutt hat cuz there is nothing else to worry about since it's so close! Yeah, that's it. A mind just needs something to worry about, so it's making it up.

i think about the guilt too and then I feel guilty for thinking about the guilt!

oh well, off to get a facial! Maybe that will help!

hahahaa, me too! Guilty for feeling guilty. Man we ARE going crazy. I can't wait for the quiet after the storm. (Ya know the time right AFTER the wedding, when there is nothing to do, nothing to craft, nothing to worry about.)

carly, the facial helped! i def recommend it!