Off Your Chest

Dear Time:

I wish I could put you on hold for just another week, I have 10 days in which to do 2 months worth of things, can you please be kind and go by fast while I am at work and really slow while I am at home. Thank you.

Dear BIL:

Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of your death and it was tough, really tough. I am sorry I did not get to the cemetary, but Jennie did not want to go because she does not believe you are there and I could not leave her side to go on my own. You know I thought about you all day and I think we had a moment in the morning while I was drinking my coffee. I am not sure if you kept Ava from sleeping on the 1 year anniversary of the night you died, but it was kinda crazy that she kept waking up crying and saying "its okay mommy" so that my sister had to bring her into bed with her. It was a good place for Ava to be though, with my sister. I hope you know how much we all love and miss you. None of us can beleive its been a year, I swear it was just last week we were dancing at your wedding. I will keep those fond memories of you with me always and will have lots of great stories to tell your daughters one day.

Dear Boss:

I hate this job and am doing my best to get any work done when all I can think about is my wedding so please get off my ass and let me do the things I have in front of me instead of hounding me. Also, I need next Friday off, so when I ask please be nice and say yes.

Dear FH:

Thank you for cleaning the basement last night to get ready for your stag this weekend, but you need to get to the other things on the list I gave you to do because we have more things to do next week. I wish you had any idea how much we have to do in how little time. Why do men not get this?

Jules - I am so sorry for your sister and your family to be going through this - she is very lucky that she has you and your FI to support her. Even in these last couple of weeks of craziness before you wedding, you still manage to be self-less for her and your niece. I am keeping you in my thoughts.

Dear BIL:

 

Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of your death and it was tough, really tough. I am sorry I did not get to the cemetary, but Jennie did not want to go because she does not believe you are there and I could not leave her side to go on my own. You know I thought about you all day and I think we had a moment in the morning while I was drinking my coffee. I am not sure if you kept Ava from sleeping on the 1 year anniversary of the night you died, but it was kinda crazy that she kept waking up crying and saying "its okay mommy" so that my sister had to bring her into bed with her. It was a good place for Ava to be though, with my sister. I hope you know how much we all love and miss you. None of us can beleive its been a year, I swear it was just last week we were dancing at your wedding. I will keep those fond memories of you with me always and will have lots of great stories to tell your daughters one day.

Dear self,

You really do have to go back to work soon. Just pretend you don't see all of the babies you have to walk by every day; and just pretend all of your coworkers aren't pregnant....

Hiedi, I'll pray for strength for you too.

Dear Hubby,

I'm soooo sorry for chewing your head off last night but why oh why do you have to bother me while I'm sleeping on the couch. Yes I think its sweet sometimes but when you start staring at me and then start poking me in the nose just slightly...It bugs the crap out of me and you wonder why I wake up upset.

It's not funny when I wake up and you are hovering over me and sticking your fingers in my nose or ears or eyelashes.....

Well I apologize for my anger but still.......